what a day

i should be doing my homework that i should have been doing early today.
but instead i am sitting here writing.
is that bad?
as usual i am pulsing to the beat of the music. sometimes when i am writing and listening to music i can just shut out the rest of the world and just focus. i can almost feel the music go through me.
right now... "one step at a time is on...""we live and learn to take one step at a time, there is no need to rush.... we find the reasons why one step at a time."

i taught with the elders today again. to a girl names bekka. it was so good to be taught along with her. i love the first dicussion. i love the account of the first vision joseph smith gives. i am amazed by it, by his faith and courage and example. i love that the Lord call him by name. wow.

i also moved around pretty much all the furniture around in my room. i like it much better. it is almost clean. so excited!

the last post i said when it rains it pours. oh how it does. like i said, the stalker man that decided to call and express his heartfelt apology for being a jerk, the 27 year old bad boy that of course naturally you cant help but want cuz he represents all the times you've had the incling to rebel, there is the self made struggle to let go of the last bit of wayne, there is the one whose professed so so strongly to be just friends, but in a very awkward untimely and blunt way let me know friends is not all he can and does see me as.

a part of me really wants to just swear off all men.

i love reading "eat pray love" its just so good. you should go read it and let me know what you think...

so cleaning my room today i realized that:
-i have soo many books and no where to put them. the saddest part is at least half i have never read or finished.
-i have a lot alot of shoes, which i think it ironic because i wear flip flops almost always.
-i would much rather have a clean open room than a dirty stuffy one.
-i felt so accomplished by cleaning today. i enjoyed making my space look better.

i have so much going in my head and have been for the last couple days.
but its late and i need to do hw and sleep. i may sleep than do hw.

have a goodnight.

sonya.