pure inspiration

go watch it at http://www.wherethehellismatt.com/videos.shtml?fbid=oGTTigV3Pgi its sooo much better quality.

"14 months in the making, 42 countries, and a cast of thousands. Thanks to everyone who danced with me. Make sure to click "watch in high quality" right underneath the video. http://www.wherethehellismatt.com/ http://www.stridegum.com/"

this is absolutly amazing. i cant even start to explain how awesome our world is and the people on it. how amazing that this man got to meet so many. : ) when i first saw this i was absolutly taken back. i started to cry. there is something in me that desires to met people are the world. we all know laughter. we all know dance. we all something similar. we are children of god. ahh. its absolutly amazing. i hope you enjoy this as much as i did. thank you to the guy at geovisions who told me about this!

mid-halloween report

so i went to met up with wayne at work. he drove the cheerleaders to their game. i went over there and they wouldnt let me in because i was in costume. lame right? ya... poop. but i came home and it was good. i sat with daniel a bit, i love him. i feel he is become the big brother i always wanted hiim to be. it feels good when we laugh together and when he gives me advice or just a listening ear. or when he helps me pick out what shoes i should wear with my costume. : ) than dad went with me to go get a sandwich. it was quite yummy. my realtionship with my dad is getting so much better. i absolutly love it. so coming home was good.... i got to breathe from my day. i dont know what happened but man... all day i've felt so beeotchy-- holy. i felt like i was pissed at the world and it just didnt matter. be pissy and offish and too independent. like i can do it on my own ya know... i know when i get in these moods i have to be real real careful on what i say and how i say it. i've ruined a lot of things by my mouth before... so i have to be real careful.

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i feel cute... ever felt like that? you see yourself in the mirror and you are like... ok that needs work, and i dont really like that but overall you see more you like than dislike... it feels good.

anyway... wayne is on his way. i think we are going to a dance. we got in quite a yucky tiff earlier, but we both decicied to work it out on own sides and get ourselves back to good and come back together. he sounds better. i feel better... :)

happy halloween!

ps... this blog is making me want to go. go and see and do. so that i can record it and have a place to store my memories. i dont know. move out? go away? get back into rock climbing? save money? school? i dont know... maybe tomorrow the answers will come....

state fair 2008

mr.kangaroo-roo

today i got to pet mr.kangaroo-roo. he was soft. it was an exceptionally wonderful moment in my life. wayne touched it too. i shall write about my other adventures of the day tomorrow. but as for now, i had the priviliage of petting a kangaroo-roo today. and for that i am grateful and still excited about... i mean, i touched a kangaroo-roo!

post number one.

wow. well first off i gotta thank my new found eternal friend kristen. we swear we knew each other in the pre-existence. thanks kristen for the inspiration to start my blog! WE are awesome! :) (can i just add right now that i am thankful for little red dots that underline half of what i write and also the yellow highlighting effects. its the only reason things will be spelt right on here. and i dont like capital letters unless the name demands that kind of respect like, Lord. thank you.)

i am awkwardly excited to write this. i have failed to write as i should have the last 2 years of my life since high school graduation. i have learned so much in such a short amount of time. but as for now... the last 10 months have been "lets learn about life, love, and sonya," months.
let me introduce myself a bit...

i am 19 years old. some days i feel much, much younger & other days i feel much, much older. sometimes i feel trapped by time and age. i hate time, (but thats a whole other blog post...) lets see... i am dating a most awesome man, wayne. we've come a long way, and have a long way to go, but the journey has been amazing thus far. i have shared some of the best times and most low lows of my life with him. he makes me laugh like no other, i've cried hard over him, and i have learned an immense amount, about a lot, from him. i will be eternally grateful for everything he has done for me....

i was supposed to get married to this wonderful man almost 2 weeks ago, but for various reasons...that didnt happen. that decision was followed by a dream like life for a few weeks while we ignored some issues that needed much attention, than a very hard and awkward break up thing, eventually leading to a wonderful make up. happy to report we are now we are dating again. holla! so, now we are again trying to figure out our own individual lives while trying to figure out how to make them come together and mesh for eternity, like we both want so badly. gosh i love him... but because of the wedding i only took 2 classes this semester. a gourmet foods class and a exercise class. (the latter im not sure if i am still in... sorry wayne.) good thing its just a pass/fail and an extra extra elective class. thus i have been forced to find things to keep me busy.

my gourmet foods teacher, chef amee saw something in me while cookin in class and asked me to be her personal assistant. because of that, i've had the opporunity to see the channel 12 news set, go to a food styling photo shoot for a popular parenting magazine and meet some pretty awesome and very interesting people. i also help teach kids to cook with her on mondays. it's pretty fun. they are cute kids, but i was surprised how exhausting it is to teach kids to make an omelet. chef amee has become a good friend of mine. her along with a handful of other women that have entered my life lately (kristen, beth, martha and some others) have infused me with confidence. they remind me i have potential in whatever i want to do or become. they press the fact i have strength with in me i dont regonize, i can go for it and accomplish whatever 'it' is. but anyhow, amee opened the door to thinking about food styling...-> did you know that food and photography could mesh!? ya i didnt either.... my other option right now is being a nurse...i'm not too sure it yet though... needles and pee and poo and sick people and therer families everyday, yet on the other hand, helping people and knowledge and money and good hourse....hmm... different blog...


i am extremely close to my family, both immediate and extended. i love my religion, i dont know how i would survive without it. it gives so much direction and safety. well, its more my relationship with Christ, more so than the church. but you get what i am saying.
i love to travel. i have had the privilege of visiting spain 3 times , peru once and several places in the united states in my short time on the earth. there is nothing like experiencing new colors, smells, taste, and sights. there are so many more places i desire to stand, see, and experience.
i love to read. it takes me away from reality, expands my vocabulary and broadens my understanding.
i love taking pictures... there is something about pausing a moment, capturing a memory, and just stopping studpid time for a second. i wish i had an awesome camera with me all the time... one day... one day...

so anywho, i am a prettyunique girl. i am still figurin it all out. i am 19 and wanting to understand it all. i want to know whats gunna happen next, but i know it doesnt work out like that. so i am learning to trust the Lord and take his hand down the path i need to be on. i am complicated yet simple. i am very passionate, sometimes too passionite. i overthink and anaylize things. i am my own worst enemy and harshest critict. but regardless, i reall do strive to see the good in people, to be positive, to be grateful, to laugh, to love, to trust, to let go, to be calm, to recognize blessings, to work hard and well, to become the women i want to be & know i can be. i am just a girl tryin to do her best through this 'crazy thing called life'....

much love!